Summer Showdown: My First Love Revisted

Dear Friends,


Do you remember your first love? Do you remember the person that made you realize what love is? I wrote in an earlier blog about giving love one more try. I have said it before but I mean it this time. However, before I go that route to giving up on love, I wanted to see if anyone can remember the first real person they fell in love with. I would answer that question with a girl name La Keisha back in elementary school. However, I changed that to my high school sweetheart. I change it because something so brief turned into something that lasted years later. I came into the realization that my image of a real woman stemmed from her. I felt something in her that I wish I held on to now. My alpha woman was and still is her.

I have talked about my high school sweetheart both in a positive and negative light. I was upset that she left the way she did. I was upset that it did not progress to something more. I was even pissed that we had to end things. However, after learning the reasons why things happened the way it did, I am not upset at her or anyone. I did go through high school putting on a happy face but also living in the dark. I have said that I do things late in life. I did not lose my virginity officially until later in life. I did not ride a bike until close to my teens. I did not drive a car until close to 25. Even being a father close to 30. I lived my life trying to find this ideal of what I wanted in a woman. She is my alpha to everything.

A couple of years ago, I found this woman that I been deeply in love with since high school. Thank god for the internet because I would not have found her. We been talking and letting things run its course. I let go of the feelings I had since high school. What’s funny is that she is exactly what I wanted in a woman. She also exceeds my image of what I want in a woman. Once you have an ideal of your dream woman, never let it go. So do I remember my first love? I do. The memory of the person I fell in love with and the person she became never really changed. I question fate sometimes because fate tends to play cruel jokes on people. I had some good times with other women but she is the only woman I should have been with. Now that she’s back into my life, I am going to make the most of what fate provides.

I want to give some advice to people that feel the same way I feel about this woman. If you have someone that you feel kindred with, then never let them go. Love is something that cannot be explained. I have seen so many friends find love with someone that click with physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I never had that except with this woman. Young love tends to show you what’s to come. I believe that. So with that said, I am thankful to have this woman in my life. My first love is something I will hold on to because of the other things I have lost in life. There will be more to come.



Eugene Chandler III