Birthday Blowout 2016: New Sunrises and Sunsets in My Life

Dear Friends,


Today is August 3rd. Only 17 days until I am 38. I know this is begining to sound tedious to say what today is and countdown mt birthday. However, next month it will get wilder and more exciting. Plus I am trying to figure out how to fill in the blanks in between the holes of my entries. Plus trying to write something relevant as opposed to ramblings and nonsense. I am noticing that it is easier to be open than hide a secret. Besides, I only look forward to one day at a time. I am reminded that tomorrow is not guaranteed.

As I keep counting down the days until my birthday, I am reminded that my birthday in a sense means fall is coming. That also means that change is coming. These days, I might not welcome change but I adapt to change. These last three years since my absence from blogging is a lot like when a famous band take a break but come together again to make good music. The only difference is that my abesence was triggered by a series of events I believed I talked about prior to my final entry of 2013. This time around, I won't let something trigger my lack of entries. To be honest, I fight just to see tomorrow.

As this day ends, I value a good sunset as well as a good sunrise. Unlike being in Detroit along the riverfront where the sunrise and sunsets were amazing, being in Monroe and seeing the sunrise and sets is almost as good. These days especially now, I value seeing a sunrise and also a sunset. That's my life basically, seeing the sunrise and going through the motions and fighting to see the sunset. I shouldn't have to battle myself or try to force myself to do half of what I do in a day. For now, I am just happy to see another day end and see a new day rises. Thank you for reading this entry.




Your buddy,


Eugene Chandler

Birthday Blowout 2016: Of Things To Come

Dear Friends,


Today is August 2nd. It is now 18 days away from my 38th birthday. After yesterday's blog, I will elaborate on my absence on here. I will go into details in the series I will call The Lost Blogs. I think I was writing blogs during my absence but either they were deleted or half finished. Basically, The Lost Blogs will be short two part entries that will fill in the blanks. Since I do actually have people that read my ramblings and life stories, it will be a treat to share things again. I honestly don't have a lot to hide.

My life as it is now is basically a day to day series of tasks and reptition. As much as I hate repition, I am use to constanly repeating myself. It is hard most days to just something once and move on. I feel like a broken record. I miss the excitement of working in Detroit during baseball and football seasons. These days, I fight depression to get out of bed. If I am not fighting depression, I have a bad right knee that is really aggrivating my life. I am falling apart. No more being able to walk or run like I use to. Now I feel like my knee was hit by a baseball bat and shocked by a live wire. Pain and deperession doesn't mix.


The only good thing about this sabbatical is that I will try not to be a broken record. I will try to have more random thoughts and not bitch and moan about things. Since 2013, I have been on a different path and also trying to grow older and wiser. Also I have to try to live life because the mundane of things now is driving me bonkers. I can't do a lot of things I like anymore because of my lack of income. I still reminisce about the fun I had working in Detroit. However, I am fighting to even go back to Detroit and visit people. I fight a daily struggle to be comfortable outsid of my zone. Thank you for reading my life in words.





Your Friend,


Eugene Chandler III

Birthday Blowout 2016: Back To Basics

Dear Friends,


You are probably wondering where the hell I have been. I haven't blogged since July 2013. Well before I go there, let me say that it is going to be a battle to start blogging again. This is my personal blog. I figured to keep this going. I hope to get back into the swing of things. Basically, as long as I keep my depression at bay and I can sit and think of something current to say, I am coming back to blogging. Hopefully, I can move forward but also fill in the gaps from July 2013 to July 2016.

Today is August 1st. That means in 19 days it will be my 38th birthday. I am two years removed from being 40. My god, it was yesterday I was bitching and moaning about being 30. Well I guess time does fly but the past does have a habit of reminding you of the mistakes you made. Like I said, in 19 days it will be my birthday. I haven't decided to celebrate it or keep it private. Someone told me that I need to live life because as I approach 40, it is not going to be pretty. So I will try to be more alive. Before I do, I have to get back to my writing form.

Basically, this is just the beginning of something new with something I have done since 2009. I need to get some things off my chest plus it is time to share some of my most difficult times in my life. A lot has changed since my last blog. I am going to make an attempt to fill in the holes because I missed out on celebrating two of my anniversaries but I will fill that in as well. For now, I am back and ready to share. Thank you for reading.




Sincerely Yours,


Eugene Chandler