Dear Friends,
As I am cleaning out my many documents, this one I came acrossed. My ex Camille, type this on my computer while she was waiting for me to get home from work. The irony about this is that tommorrow came and went in that relationship. What's funny is that she would reference this poem when we fought and also when it was over. Enjoy:
If Tomorrow Never Comes
If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would videotape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time I could spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming, you would know I do.
If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day,
well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance to make everything right.
There will always be another day to say our "I love you's",
And certainly there's another chance to say our "Anything I can do's?"
But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you and I hope we never forget,
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day
So if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today, whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them and that you'll always hold them dear,
Take time to say "I'm sorry," "please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.
Eugene Chandler III
Monday, March 15, 2010
March Madness 2010: A List of My Exs
I recently said that I will be naming names about something. This is the first blog in which names are used. Thankfully some of these girls are married now, so they cannot get pissed off at me. The rest are not on Facebook or anywhere else online. Here is my list of ex girlfriends.
1.) Michelle Romanowski
1995-1996
(She moved away. It just ended.)
2.) Victoria Thompson
November 1996
(She Used Religion To Break Up With Me.)
3.) My 1st True Love:
Eugenia Gary 1997-1999
(I Broke Up With Her.)
4.) My 1st Friend With Benefits:
Michelle Muse
1999-2001 On and Off.
(Long story and a mess one.)
My Longest Relationship:
Camille Boyd
June 2000 to November 2005
(Ended Horribly)
My Baby Momma
Marie Philpot
October 2005 to July 2006
(The relationship ended but it produced my son, Austin. )
My Former Best Friend
La Shanna Wornum
April 2008 to November 2008
(You know the story of how this all ended.)
Now, if you want to know the stories about why these relationships ended, email me. However this is my graveyard for all things that ended either on a good note or on a horrible note.
Eugene Chandler III
1.) Michelle Romanowski
1995-1996
(She moved away. It just ended.)
2.) Victoria Thompson
November 1996
(She Used Religion To Break Up With Me.)
3.) My 1st True Love:
Eugenia Gary 1997-1999
(I Broke Up With Her.)
4.) My 1st Friend With Benefits:
Michelle Muse
1999-2001 On and Off.
(Long story and a mess one.)
My Longest Relationship:
Camille Boyd
June 2000 to November 2005
(Ended Horribly)
My Baby Momma
Marie Philpot
October 2005 to July 2006
(The relationship ended but it produced my son, Austin. )
My Former Best Friend
La Shanna Wornum
April 2008 to November 2008
(You know the story of how this all ended.)
Now, if you want to know the stories about why these relationships ended, email me. However this is my graveyard for all things that ended either on a good note or on a horrible note.
Eugene Chandler III
March Madness 2010: Can A Son Forgive A Father? Part One
Dear Friends,
How do you tell a small child that you are their father? That’s something I have been trying to do this weekend and ever before then. Some kids know who their mom and dad are. For those who don’t then be happy to have your adoptive fathers and mothers. My son is three and does not know I exist. My baby momma has not told him I exist and until recently, I did not want him to know. Why the change of heart? Well god forbids, if I am no longer on this earth, then he would be my only air to anything worthy. I knew of my father since the age of three. It is hard in the world we live in to be able to have a child and become a father or a mother. My mother never talked bad about my father. My opinion of my father was not a good one. I am trying to avoid my son from having these same thoughts but that’s kind of late.
This past weekend, I had a nice and frank conversation with my baby momma and he knows I exist but I’m not there for him. I am trying to be there but I am working on myself. My son is someone I do not want to see if I am not doing well. So how do you tell a small child that you are his father? Is it like telling a child the truth about Santa? Or is it like telling a child that you cannot eat desert? This is not something that can be done quick and fast. I know this is going to take some time to adjust not only for him but myself as well.
One more thing, after you tell this child that you are his father, do they suppose to forgive you for not being there? Can someone be forgiven for not being in someone’s life? Only time will tell…
More To Come…
Eugene Chandler III
How do you tell a small child that you are their father? That’s something I have been trying to do this weekend and ever before then. Some kids know who their mom and dad are. For those who don’t then be happy to have your adoptive fathers and mothers. My son is three and does not know I exist. My baby momma has not told him I exist and until recently, I did not want him to know. Why the change of heart? Well god forbids, if I am no longer on this earth, then he would be my only air to anything worthy. I knew of my father since the age of three. It is hard in the world we live in to be able to have a child and become a father or a mother. My mother never talked bad about my father. My opinion of my father was not a good one. I am trying to avoid my son from having these same thoughts but that’s kind of late.
This past weekend, I had a nice and frank conversation with my baby momma and he knows I exist but I’m not there for him. I am trying to be there but I am working on myself. My son is someone I do not want to see if I am not doing well. So how do you tell a small child that you are his father? Is it like telling a child the truth about Santa? Or is it like telling a child that you cannot eat desert? This is not something that can be done quick and fast. I know this is going to take some time to adjust not only for him but myself as well.
One more thing, after you tell this child that you are his father, do they suppose to forgive you for not being there? Can someone be forgiven for not being in someone’s life? Only time will tell…
More To Come…
Eugene Chandler III
March Madness 2010: To All Spies...
Dear Friends,
Recently, I have been noticing people reacting to my every word and action on Myspace, Facebook, and and even Yahoo. Normally when I write a blog or ever post a witty comment, I take most of what people as a complement. However, lately my words come back to my current girlfriend. Shit like that upsets me because she gets an attitude about it. One reason why I blog is to vent my frustration to those who upset me which includes my current girlfriend. So what am I going to do?
So in essence, I have spies that follow my words and actions. These words and actions trickle down and back to my current girlfriend. So do I have to watch my words? Fuck no because I not only have freedom of speech but to any fuckers that even reports my words to my current girlfriend, fuck you. I think it is childish to run and tell because you are a friend to my current girlfriend. I also think you want me to lose my relationship because of your hatred to me. I’m not going anywhere and I am going to keep blogging because this is cheaper that therapy.
Before I go, please remember something everyone. What comes around goes around. I am going to start sounding like my hood brothers out there when they say snitches are bitches. Now I understand why snitches are a bad thing in urban area. So before you run tell that, you might want to come talk to me. More to come.
Eugene Chandler III
Recently, I have been noticing people reacting to my every word and action on Myspace, Facebook, and and even Yahoo. Normally when I write a blog or ever post a witty comment, I take most of what people as a complement. However, lately my words come back to my current girlfriend. Shit like that upsets me because she gets an attitude about it. One reason why I blog is to vent my frustration to those who upset me which includes my current girlfriend. So what am I going to do?
So in essence, I have spies that follow my words and actions. These words and actions trickle down and back to my current girlfriend. So do I have to watch my words? Fuck no because I not only have freedom of speech but to any fuckers that even reports my words to my current girlfriend, fuck you. I think it is childish to run and tell because you are a friend to my current girlfriend. I also think you want me to lose my relationship because of your hatred to me. I’m not going anywhere and I am going to keep blogging because this is cheaper that therapy.
Before I go, please remember something everyone. What comes around goes around. I am going to start sounding like my hood brothers out there when they say snitches are bitches. Now I understand why snitches are a bad thing in urban area. So before you run tell that, you might want to come talk to me. More to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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