Dear Friends,
Recently I had to delete some people off my facebook because either I stop talking to them or was being used to help play a game. After I delete those people, I though about the people I do talk to. I realized that my longest friend is someone I have known for over ten years. Another person I am friend’s with use to have a bad drug problem. Another friend was a former prostitute and stripper. I know I am not perfect but my friends are a colorful at times. Most have more shit in their closet than I do.
I said a long time ago that I wanted people in my life that were not like me but can relate to me. I have those people in my life. I also wanted to experience new things and I did with these people. I mean I came out of a shy shell and also became more talkative and active. A lot of my earlier writings and blogs show that my life was full of excitement and suspense. I also became enlightened in what life is to me. So do I regret these people in my life? No because these people made me never feel uncomfortable or even awkward. I have been in the company of thugs, drug dealers, crack addicts, drunks and whores but never did I feel like my life was threatened. I remind people that I lived in Detroit and seen more shit than anyone could imagine.
The sins these people might have does not change what I see in them. Some of these people I consider family. These are brothers and sisters that I have by fate. God does tend to bring people together because of life choices and also life itself. I am not complaining about these people but to those who wanted to be my friend to gain points for a game or because they know someone I know, you know what happens to you if you do that.
Eugene Chandler III
Friday, February 11, 2011
Black History Month: Winter and Depression
Dear Friends,
I say to people that I hate this time of the year. Winter is a cruel time to force people to be cold and miserable. I hate it because my life is frozen and I have to wait for spring to melt the ice in my life. I use to be active but for the exception of school, I think I am frozen. This is why I get depressed and want to not do anything. I get depressed this time of year because of the lack of things to do. I am also stuck in a rut because I am in a town where there is not a lot to do. I’m not active in a church, or school groups, or anything. I want to be active but there is nothing I can do that comes with a cost. I cannot work with kids because people are paranoid of who their kids are around. I cannot volunteer at the hospital because of the viruses in the air. Basically, I got the winter blues.
Since I am in school, I have no cash. So being broke does make things hard to do things. Most of my friends are done with classes, so my friends are working or making work for themselves. I’m in class and doing my work but also feel like I am alone again. I feel like that because I have no one to talk to now. Also my friends and other people are busy with their lives. Being alone is a good thing for me but as I make new friends and do more, I need to be around more people. I need to do something or I will lose my mind.
For now, I can try to fight this and work on school and other things. I need to do more because I am losing my mind and letting my body get fatter. That’s something else that people do in the winter, get fat. So I hope to fight the winter blues and get excited for spring.
Eugene Chandler III
I say to people that I hate this time of the year. Winter is a cruel time to force people to be cold and miserable. I hate it because my life is frozen and I have to wait for spring to melt the ice in my life. I use to be active but for the exception of school, I think I am frozen. This is why I get depressed and want to not do anything. I get depressed this time of year because of the lack of things to do. I am also stuck in a rut because I am in a town where there is not a lot to do. I’m not active in a church, or school groups, or anything. I want to be active but there is nothing I can do that comes with a cost. I cannot work with kids because people are paranoid of who their kids are around. I cannot volunteer at the hospital because of the viruses in the air. Basically, I got the winter blues.
Since I am in school, I have no cash. So being broke does make things hard to do things. Most of my friends are done with classes, so my friends are working or making work for themselves. I’m in class and doing my work but also feel like I am alone again. I feel like that because I have no one to talk to now. Also my friends and other people are busy with their lives. Being alone is a good thing for me but as I make new friends and do more, I need to be around more people. I need to do something or I will lose my mind.
For now, I can try to fight this and work on school and other things. I need to do more because I am losing my mind and letting my body get fatter. That’s something else that people do in the winter, get fat. So I hope to fight the winter blues and get excited for spring.
Eugene Chandler III
Black History Month: Moments of Life
Dear Friends,
Someone once told me that life is a series of events and moments, the more you see the more you will embrace life. Well most of my moments are sports-related. Other than those moments, my life has been a series of ups and downs. I say this because as we enter a new year, I feel like I am at the peak of my good moments. I said in an earlier blog that I am close to graduating from college. That’s my blessed event. I was not there to see my son born and to see other graduate and be married but to me, seeing a college graduation is my bliss.
So why are there people that want to piss and shit on my parade for being close to graduating college? I know I have haters. I know that I have negative people in my life. So rather than be around them, I will go my own path. After doing that, I need to set out goals and stick to them. Not something like lose weight, or get out of debt because those are common goals but I want to do more for myself, others and my family.
For now, as I see my life in front of me, I will be more positive and more enlightened in my life. I am going to be able to see my life with a sense of worth. I grew up in Detroit in the 1980’s and 1990’s with a sense of purpose. I think being able to make a change is better than causing more harm and damage. My life is a series of happiness, grief, guilt and redemption. I hope to get rid of everything except happiness. I want to be happy.
Eugene Chandler III
Someone once told me that life is a series of events and moments, the more you see the more you will embrace life. Well most of my moments are sports-related. Other than those moments, my life has been a series of ups and downs. I say this because as we enter a new year, I feel like I am at the peak of my good moments. I said in an earlier blog that I am close to graduating from college. That’s my blessed event. I was not there to see my son born and to see other graduate and be married but to me, seeing a college graduation is my bliss.
So why are there people that want to piss and shit on my parade for being close to graduating college? I know I have haters. I know that I have negative people in my life. So rather than be around them, I will go my own path. After doing that, I need to set out goals and stick to them. Not something like lose weight, or get out of debt because those are common goals but I want to do more for myself, others and my family.
For now, as I see my life in front of me, I will be more positive and more enlightened in my life. I am going to be able to see my life with a sense of worth. I grew up in Detroit in the 1980’s and 1990’s with a sense of purpose. I think being able to make a change is better than causing more harm and damage. My life is a series of happiness, grief, guilt and redemption. I hope to get rid of everything except happiness. I want to be happy.
Eugene Chandler III
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