Dear Friends,
As March comes to an end, we get ready for April. April 29th, 2011 is a day I been waiting for since June 10th, 1996. I talked about in an earlier blog about not fucking up and not allowing things to get in my way. This date has been in my mind since Fall 2010. Most people when they graduate think about what's to come and also getting the word out to people about you graduating. I have been more worried about what I need to do to make a new life for myself and also do more in my life. I am also concerned about the next step. I sound like the end of American Pie, with the next step mess.
I am looking for colleges to attend next and also possibilities that I can create. I might be older but I can still create something out of nothing. I might be fighting depression and other shit, I know that this will give me something to live for. It is better than having nothing to live for. Sometimes, I see my luck changing because I know I cannot get any worse.
My future is not written but I can make changes to what occurs today and go from there. Graduation is a way for someone to see if they have self worth or pity for themselves. I am hopeful this will be a start for things to change and for things to get better in my life. All I got to say is in less than 50 days, I will get my degree.
Eugene Chandler III
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
March Madness: Drastic Changes and Rock Bottom
Dear Friends,
Starting this week, a serious of events changed my life but also another person I know. First of all, my friend just moved up with a new job and also a better outlook on life. After that happened, I was blessed with an interview to become more than just a vendor but an assistant manager in the company I work at during baseball season. This would mean actually getting a paycheck rather than getting commission. I said in an earlier blog that spring does bring changes but it also brings a sense of hope. My friend is happy to be at a new job and doing something worthy. As for myself, well I hope to be blessed with something soon or hope it will work out. I would love to be something more than a vendor or do more in my life.
Earlier this morning, I was thinking of when I hit rock bottom in my life. Usually people cannot tell when they hit rock bottom but I know when I did. Sometime in 2007, was when the beginning of the end started. I was happy then to have started over in Flint. However, from Summer 2007 to Winter 2008 was the first stage of rock bottom. The second stage of rock bottom was this past September from dealing with child support and thinking about my son. I am not going to wait for the final part of rock bottom because I need to make some moves and changes to get out of rock bottom.
You might be asking me if I am overacting about things, and I am not. I am trying to not allow anything else to fuck up my life or steer me in the wrong direction. I am older but still fall for the same shit from people. I use to dream big and go for broke but now I want to get out of the hell I am in now. I see that if I don't do what I need to do then I am trapped and stuck in this hell. Some people think I am happy but I will be happier once I get my associate's degree, then my bachelor's degree then have a career or make work for myself. Until then, I'm in hell. More to come.
Eugene Chandler III
Starting this week, a serious of events changed my life but also another person I know. First of all, my friend just moved up with a new job and also a better outlook on life. After that happened, I was blessed with an interview to become more than just a vendor but an assistant manager in the company I work at during baseball season. This would mean actually getting a paycheck rather than getting commission. I said in an earlier blog that spring does bring changes but it also brings a sense of hope. My friend is happy to be at a new job and doing something worthy. As for myself, well I hope to be blessed with something soon or hope it will work out. I would love to be something more than a vendor or do more in my life.
Earlier this morning, I was thinking of when I hit rock bottom in my life. Usually people cannot tell when they hit rock bottom but I know when I did. Sometime in 2007, was when the beginning of the end started. I was happy then to have started over in Flint. However, from Summer 2007 to Winter 2008 was the first stage of rock bottom. The second stage of rock bottom was this past September from dealing with child support and thinking about my son. I am not going to wait for the final part of rock bottom because I need to make some moves and changes to get out of rock bottom.
You might be asking me if I am overacting about things, and I am not. I am trying to not allow anything else to fuck up my life or steer me in the wrong direction. I am older but still fall for the same shit from people. I use to dream big and go for broke but now I want to get out of the hell I am in now. I see that if I don't do what I need to do then I am trapped and stuck in this hell. Some people think I am happy but I will be happier once I get my associate's degree, then my bachelor's degree then have a career or make work for myself. Until then, I'm in hell. More to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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