New Years Revolution: Goals for 2013

Dear Friends,

Well as I wake up on the first day of the new year, I felt this wave of fear hit me hard. I realized that it is 2013 not 2012. When it is a new year, usually I would be happy to make it through a calendar year. However, it is getting harder to enjoy the blessings of a new year. I said before that this is going to be a year of restructuring and settling debts. I am trying to settle my emotions but the new year is going to be interesting for me. Aside from what I just mentioned, I also feel like it is time to finally deal with my son and his mother. My son will be six years old this year and he does not know I exist. With that said, I guess I will talk about my other dreams and plans for 2013.

One thing that I was blessed with in 2012 is working past September. I was blessed to see something that I have not experienced since 2006. I got to see another World Series run by the Detroit Tigers. I am still not use to seeing large crowds because when I started there, it was dead. I hope this is the year that I get to see another championship run and also the blessings from that.

This year will mark my 35^th birthday. Unlike my 34^th birthday, I will actually celebrate it. Last year was ok but you want to do better for the next year. I guess I am learning to celebrate my birth more because life is too short. For the last five years, my birthday wish is to have my son while I work. I know that is a pipe dream but it is better than nothing at all.

Finally, I guess this year is going to be the year I get off my ass and do something worthy in my life. I use to volunteer and do something aside from work. I want to be a role model and do stuff with kids. I just want to do something that no one could do for me: teach kids how to live. I guess that will be easier said than done.

Basically, I just want to do more in my life. I see things differently because I want more in my life. I might not get to be rich or famous but known and respect does feel good. It is time to get things right because tomorrow is not guaranteed. There will be more to come.

Eugene Chandler III 

New Year Revolution: Happy 2013!

Dear Friends,

This is my first official blog of 2013. I wish I could say that this is my year to be a happier man but like with most of my years on this earth, I am still living with past sins and mistakes. However, unlike the beginning of 2012, this year is going to be different. I say that because thing will be changing for the better this year. Usually, I would start a new blog of the New Year with something but I am going to do what I do best: ramble. So here are some things to just get out in the open for the New Year.

First of all, something I hope to accomplish is finally getting through this mess with my son and his mother. That was weighing heavy on my heart because of the effect it is having on myself and my son. He doesn’t know me. I want to change that. My son should be a part of my life. Not a debt that I have to pay off.

Second, it is time to get my credit in order. I am tired of people wanting to collect money from me. I knew this was going to happen but I did not expect the economy to go to shit. So I guess it is time to clean my closet and get my shit together financially. I do want to have things like a car, a house, even build businesses. I just want to be able to live again.

Third, it is time to use my degree. No point in going to school and not really use my degree. I want to do something that is not food related. I have been doing food related jobs for over ten years. I’m tired of food. I just want to be able to have an income not be in debt. I hope for a blessing in this department. I just hope for a blessing regardless.

Finally, I guess it is time to just take stock in my life since this is an important year in my life. I will be 35 years old in August. I will be out of a demographic. Time to gear up for 40 years old and also figure out what makes me happy because it is time to stop being alone. Only time will tell on this one because this is really easier to say than getting done. Happy New Year and God Bless you all for helping me deal with my life as it is now.

Eugene Chandler III

December To Remember: Last Entry of 2012

Dear Friends,

I know I have been hiding during the transition between Thanksgiving and Christmas but if you don’t know, I don’t like this time of year. I decided to do this last blog of 2012. I am not depressed but more so trying to fight the winter blues. I guess this is a better than moping around or wallowing in sadness. I really don’t know what to say to end this year because most of what I had to say was said. I guess I can do what I do best in these blogs: ramble to a point.

One thing that has kept me busy is working. Even though working during the fall/winter is shorter and more time in between, I still find myself trying to keep active. I know most of my friends would be happy to see this happier me but it is a façade to keep you all from not worrying about me. One thing I have been good at for the last few years is not showing people my true emotions. No need to have people worried and scared.

Something else that has kept me busy is the search for a real relationship. That concept does not exist in this world we live in. I say that because most women are looking for someone that can either support them mentally, financially, or both. I have tried to find something different from what I have been with. I also have become desperate because it is not like women are not knocking at my door to be with me. I guess as I approach my 35^th birthday, it is time to settle for something that will be a positive force in my life.

Finally, as I see a new year, like I said on Facebook: It is time to look at the man in the mirror and make changes. It is time to man up and make hard choices and decisions. Some things I have avoided in the past is going to have to be dealt with this year. I want to be positive but these choices and decisions might change my life and make life more difficult. All I can do is something to make life easier to deal with. So with that said, Happy New Year to you all…………Here comes 2013!!!!!

Eugene Chandler III