Dear Friends,
Before I begin this blog, please read what I posted on Facebook yesterday:
Dear God,
I said I'm not looking for someone to be in my life. I stop trying to find a wife. So why are you testing me? Why am I being given possibilities? I don't like having false hope. I love you and all but why now? I am already stressed with school and the thought of graduating. Thank you for these opportunities but... why me.
Aside from the fact that I need to use spell check more often, I said this because I have been plagued with the decision about love. I want to say I gave up on love but lately, that decision is coming to bite me on the ass. So I ask what to do? I am not bragging but I know something is going on when I am talking to people I wish could have been mines together with people who were mines but want me back. This is something I wish I could just figure out and move forward. Thank god, I live day to day.
Eugene Chandler III
Thursday, November 18, 2010
November To Remember: Progress Report
Dear Friends,
Well according to my calendar, we have one week until Thanksgiving. I usually don’t speak on the holiday but I figured I would take time out to say some things and let you know what’s going on with me. Some people don’t have twitter or facebook, so let me break down my life since the end of October:
I left my ex-girlfriend’s place (I took my name off the lease so she can be alone.) before Halloween. I had to leave because it was not only an awkward situation living with someone that did not love you and basically was not happy with you. The sick feeling I would get when I would come in the place made me almost lose my mind. She was probably feeling the same way plus she was too busy trying to date people I work with and people she wanted to get with before she met me.
Do I feel like shit because of this? I did but I realize that my life is not about her needs anymore. My life is about my goals in my life and what I want to do with my life. So up until October 28th, I was packing my stuff while going to school and being a college student. Am I happy it is over? When you end a relationship, it is never over but you forget with time. Unlike my other failed relationships, this one did not hurt me as bad and karma is a harsh bitch.
So what now? Well I am still alive and closer to getting my degree. I am happy but if you know me, you know that my happiness only last for a few simple moments. There will be blogs starting tomorrow. I think even with all the shit I have to do for classes, I need to let my feelings be known. So this is not the end only the beginning of more. One more thing: Vlogs will be back in December.
Eugene Chandler III
Well according to my calendar, we have one week until Thanksgiving. I usually don’t speak on the holiday but I figured I would take time out to say some things and let you know what’s going on with me. Some people don’t have twitter or facebook, so let me break down my life since the end of October:
I left my ex-girlfriend’s place (I took my name off the lease so she can be alone.) before Halloween. I had to leave because it was not only an awkward situation living with someone that did not love you and basically was not happy with you. The sick feeling I would get when I would come in the place made me almost lose my mind. She was probably feeling the same way plus she was too busy trying to date people I work with and people she wanted to get with before she met me.
Do I feel like shit because of this? I did but I realize that my life is not about her needs anymore. My life is about my goals in my life and what I want to do with my life. So up until October 28th, I was packing my stuff while going to school and being a college student. Am I happy it is over? When you end a relationship, it is never over but you forget with time. Unlike my other failed relationships, this one did not hurt me as bad and karma is a harsh bitch.
So what now? Well I am still alive and closer to getting my degree. I am happy but if you know me, you know that my happiness only last for a few simple moments. There will be blogs starting tomorrow. I think even with all the shit I have to do for classes, I need to let my feelings be known. So this is not the end only the beginning of more. One more thing: Vlogs will be back in December.
Eugene Chandler III
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