Dear Friends,
I have been doing a lot of thinking about my son. I have not seen him since he was young back in 2007. I don’t think of myself as a father. I have raised him or talked to him, or even played with him. In his eyes, I am the man that pays for his medical bills and shares genetics with. My son basically does not know I exist.
In my journeys, I have learned a lot about how kids that does not know about their fathers end up resenting them. I know as of right now, my kid will hate me. I also know that for every step I make to see him, I have to take 10 steps back because of some silly issues. I know I am going to get a lot of attitudes because I should see my son and I should be a father to him. It’s easy when you have the means but when you lose those means, it becomes a problem.
So what to do? For now, I will try to keep my son in my heart. I love him and want to be in his life. I cannot wait to see him but for now, I have to hope I don’t lose hope in seeing him or lose my right to see him. Daddy loves you and will see you soon.
Eugene Chandler III
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