Dear Friends,
Recently I notice that one of my exes got married. So the total number of exes that are married is at two. So you would think I would be happy or don’t care? I am seeing a pattern with my exes: Once they leave me, they find happiness. I think there are a couple exceptions but 99% of the time, they move on and find happiness. This is something I though was a fad but it is more of a transference of love. They were miserable with me but find someone that made them happy.
My first ex moved to North Carolina, and then found her true love. This ex recent married and is glowing about it. I really think being with me is the poison before getting the antidote. The funny thing is that these two ex girlfriends are my second and third girlfriends I had. My first girlfriend has not talked to me since 1999. Excluding my high school sweetheart who I have been in contact with, I think most of my ex girlfriends are happier without me. Like I said, there is maybe one or two exceptions.
With my current ex girlfriend being number eight, I can say at least close to six of my ex girlfriends are in better relationships or married. I think I can say I’m not a bad person but I know I have bad tendencies. For now, I am not happy being alone but I am definitely not happy to see someone I use to date become a married and happy woman. So why did I bring this up? It is not coincidence that in my life, being with me is like hell before seeing heaven. I am not going to say that I make these women hate me but there is something about being with me that I might need to change to keep a woman happy with me. More to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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