Dear Friends,
As I embark
on my journey back to familiar surroundings, I find myself laughing at all the
times, I had to go back somewhere with my tail tucked between my legs. I saw on
the news that people from the ages of 25 to 34 had to come home or close to
home because they graduated school but no job. I can relate to that since even
though I got my associate’s degree but have not done shit with it. I don’t like
to admit defeat but with the shit that I been through, I need to run like hell.
I am happy to at least have someone and somewhere to go when things go bad.
My life has
been many things but boring is not something I would use. What’s funny is that
when I was with my current ex, I wanted a boring life but her life was more
chaotic than mines. Going back to somewhere familiar helps me reflect and
hopefully end my cycle of bad relationships and even worse endings to what should
have been great stories. I don’t use home because my heart is my home. No
matter where I am at, I am at home. That might be a silly thing to say but it
has got me through my life even now.
Home is
where the heart is and I see that I have to get my life in order. I have said
this many times before but this time, I mean it. After Andrea, I should have left
for good. After Michelle M, I will fix my heart, my life, my soul and even
finally clean on the skeletons in my closet before I decide to leave again. I
feel like a broken record but hope this time going back to a place that makes
me feel like I want to live life is better than being surrounded by sadness and
depression. So like the song goes, I am coming home...tell the world I am
coming home. That’s all for now but more to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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