Dear Friends,
I have moved on. I have made some steps to start over and
get my feet back into the dating world. I have started looking for someone not
like AF or the other ex. I don’t want to experience someone like those women
again. I want a real woman. I want someone that is not going to look at me and
assume shit about me because that is not good. I have been thinking about my
life since dating my best friend and I come to the realization that I want
someone like her or someone new in my life. This is my blog about dating in
this era of time.
I have said that I don’t date. I want a mate or someone that
wants a husband and a provider in their life. Something my other ex neglected
to see is that I am a good man to become a good father. Her issues were that
she did not want an equal but a subordinate. She wanted someone to carry out
her orders and not impose any justice. I am a provider and protector by nature.
Someone wants that in their life not a scrub or a lazy ass. I might only work 6
to 8 months in a year but I bust my ass to provide for myself and others. I had
to change my mind about dating because I want to have fun. I also want to see
if I can find someone that clicks with me.
I use to say that I don’t have standards. I really had to
think about why I did not have standards. Some men are picky about women. Some
men want thin women. Some men want an education woman. Some men want a big
woman that can cook. I think my standards are too low. I think that’s because
of my ordeal in high school. That would also explain my dating experiences or
lack there of in college. After dealing with AF and the other ex, I gained some
insight on some of my past indecisions. I have found some women that are a hell
of a lot better than AF and the other one. I might not have standards but I do
have high hopes.
One of my biggest issues was the race of my girlfriends. I
looked back since 1994. My first girlfriend in high school was white but left
because her family did not want her with a black male. My college sweetheart
was black. She was my heart back then. The mother of my son is white. So I have
flipped back and forth from Caucasian women to Black women but I do date women.
I just want someone to love not to hate me. Race is not an issue to me.
Finally, I think this time around, I might have to learn to
be friends with a woman. I mean know them thoroughly because I think the lack
of education about my past exes would have made me see what I was getting into.
AF is the best example of my lack of not knowing what I was getting into. Same
goes with my other ex because of the lack of information that was receive. Just
like a woman that does not want to marry a murderer or a rapist, I don’t want
to date a crazy bitch or a vindictive cunt. I might sound harsh but if you know
my history, I have been through some shit.
I guess this is my time to get a friend or two. I want
someone that is real and human. I don’t want a repeat of AF or the other ex. I
want someone that is capable of real love, respect, and does not have trust
issues. I guess for now, I will hope for someone that is not AF. That’s all for
now but there is more to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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