New Years Revolution: Family Craziness

Dear Friends,

Usually when I talk to my mother, it is an interesting mix of nostalgia and lunacy. However, something that my mother said made me think about something I talked about constantly in my blogs. My mother shared to me that depression runs in the family. So I guess that and other things run on my mother’s side. So as I decided to do some research, I found out that depression, bi-polar, and personality disorders all are hereditary. Well I guess that explains a lot. So I am going to discuss something that I also realized.

First of all, I have said before many times in the last few years that I was diagnosed with clinical depression in 2004, however it goes back to 1995. My mother was diagnosed with bi-polar and depression in 2009 but it goes back to the 1980’s. My grandmother was diagnosed with something related but no one wants to discuss it with me. So basically, I inherited some form of lunacy in my life.

So after finding out that I inherit being crazy, which means I should get help. That’s easier said than done because there is not that much help for people with depression or worse. I think that sometimes it is easier to admit something than getting help for it. I know I am borderline crazy but if it is hereditary then I need to do something. Also it is hard to realize that there is a fine line between being crazy and fighting to be sane. Something I been doing since 1997.

So as I continue to move on and live life, I have to see that this is something I need to think about. Also it explains a lot about my mood, my mind set and also my lack of patience. Well I am going to do something to make my life better but one thing that I come to realize is that if I don’t do something about this, I could end up being institutionalized. I guess for now, this will be continued for another day. I will hope to be able to do more as the months come. Good by for now.

Eugene Chandler III