November To Remember: Thanksgiving Horrors Revisited

Dear Friends,


If you have ever read my blogs or heard me tell this story, you know that I don't hate Thanksgiving but I hate the days leading to the holiday. Especially the Tuesday before Thanksgiving makes me cry, upset and frustrated. Well after paying attention to the calendar, this year marks the seventh year of the nightmare that lead to more. So before I go into my feelings of this shitty event, let me give you all the short and sweet version:

November 2005 was when I was still happily in love and happy in my life. I was not as depressed as I am now. I was happy with my girlfriend and was happy working. I should have had it all but I lost it all in a matter of days. Her version of the story involves me being abusive and scary her out of the place we shared. My version is that she went to work but came back with cops and her father. The end result was me being out on the street. I ended up being alone, miserable and branded an abuser for the first time. I got passed that.

Now this happen seven years ago. I have let this go. However, this is a reminder that even happy and merry does not prepare you for the turn of events that could make life harder than it should be. This is the beginning of how my current mood and sitations started. People get mad at me for being negative. This event made me a realist. Being negative means to hate everything. I don't hate anything but I do see reality. The world we live in is a cold and cruel place.

I wanted to share this because it reminds me that it is time to really make changes. Changes that should have been made years ago and also things that need to be done soon. 2013 is going to be a new year and this is the year shit changes for me. I guess in the long run, I want to remind myself that not only do I need to be on guard but also I need to stop letting others scare me. It is bad enough people throw guilt trips on me. However, that will fucking end. This is never over but it is for now.





Eugene Chandler III