Dear Friends,
This is the last week of July which means the countdown to
my birthday begins soon. Most people hate that their birthdays are in the
winter or the spring but I don't like my birthday because it is the end of
summer for me. My birthday also is the culmination of a wild week of birthdays.
My father's birthday is on the 14th of August, then my stepmother's birthday is
on the 17th of August, and then finally my birthday is on the 20th of August. Every
year, this time of year is action packed for the simple reason of celebration
of a family of Leos. What I want to talk about is before this week of
celebration. This is the birthday blues blog.
People don't think you should be sad about being a year
older. I have dreaded this since 13 yrs old. I guess because the older I get
the wiser I get and also the mistakes I made get more harder to deal with. I
have said that I dislike Thanksgiving to Christmas but the weeks leading to my
birthday is nerve racking because of the wait and also the reflection I do each
year. I have tried each year to not be depressed around my birthday but some
years I celebrate and others I would hide out.
When you get older, you tend to reflect more. I have not
live life like some people but I have lived an interesting life. I try not to
reflect because it reminds me of what I was and how I changed in the last few
years. Most Christians tend to think that relection is a good thing to remind
you of what you did was a sin or what you did was a blessing. I hate reflection
but my mind is set to remind me of what I did wrong and also try to not repeat
my mistakes and issues. When it comes to it, I hate getting older because
remembering the past is a bitch.
Finally, having the blues about your birthday means that you
want the next year to be better not worse just remember that. Last year, I was
happy with someone but after the weather change it changed. This year, I spent
it being single for the first time since 1996. I am happy with my life but I
know I want more. Until next time, see you all for the next entry.
Eugene Chandler III
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