New Year's Revolution: Dreams Shattered but Hope Not Lost

Dear Friends,

Yesterday, I was riding high when I was supposed to become a student at Lourdes College in Ohio. I had my id made; I got my schedule, and attended orientation. All I needed was the money to go to school. After ducking and dodging, I see the director of financial aid. I was filled with enthusiasm and hope but I left upset and filled with rage. She was not going to allow me to go to school because I would not have enough to go to school there. So I left Lourdes feeling pissed, and made at myself. Not because I should have been there in the fall but because I let something stop me from getting my life right. This blog is going to talk about what’s next for me and also how to adapt to life’s changes.

First and foremost, usually I would be bitching and moaning about shit life does to me. In 2012, I decided to change my game to better myself and also be more honest with things. So when this woman had the balls to say I can’t spend my money there because she doesn’t want to be responsible for me to not pay back my loans, I had to take a moment to think. This woman made her decision before I walked in. I wanted to go off on this woman but I though about something: she just closed one door. So I left and let that door close. Eventually I will kick another door down to get my life right.

As I was walking out of Lourdes, I decided to reply the conversation in my head. I understood her points about having the funds to finish school. I also understood that going to school can be expensive. However, unlike my determination to go to University of Detroit Mercy in 1996, I decided to not make that same mistake. Back in 1996 to 2001, I stayed at University of Detroit Mercy because I was scared to move on. I don’t have that fear now. So I walked out, cancelled my classes, and just decided to move forward and more on.

As I write this entry, I am filled with ideals and thoughts. I am reminded of my decision of going to Baker College in 2006. I did not think about things, I just left. I wish I could do that now but lack of funds and other issues prevent me from doing that. So I will get a plan formed and I will try to move on and forward. I will never let life get to me. I will basically show that I am still able to adapt. That’s all for this entry but there is more to come.

Eugene Chandler III