Dear Friends,
I usually don’t talk about this person because of all the emotion involved but recent events made me see that it is time to talk. Recently, it was my son’s fourth birthday. I have not seen in a long time because of many reasons. I don’t talk about my son because of the stress and the trigger to my depression. Not because I don’t love him but because of the mother. With his birthday passing, it reminded me that four years ago, I was on the path to get my life right but stumbled when my son came into the world. Kids tend to make some people either change or run. I didn’t run but I did let go to get some focus in my life.
Before my son came into the world, I was not focused on much. I was not myself but I was still able to live. Back then, I was not into anything or wanted to live for something. However, before my son came into the world I finally felt like I was getting my life right. Then I found out that I was going to have a son then my life change but I though for the worse. I see that my son was something to live for and be with.
My son is four years old and does not know who I am. I know that it is part my fault but I am going to make up for that. However, I have to also face my fears with the mother because she’s still hurting from me moving on and letting her down. So for now, I am going to fight to see my son but also hope to see my son’s fifth birthday. More to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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