Dear Friends,
Well it has been a busy couple of days. First of all, I have been getting help with my busted right knee. I found out back in April that my right knee is busted. Cracked kneecap, a small tear in my knee and fluid in my knee. So like my mother and my father, I have bursitis or arthritis in my knee. Basically, I cannot try to move like a young chicken anymore. The reason why I am speak of this is because with my brithday coming up in a couple of weeks, I am getting older. I am not 40 yet but I am finally understanding why others in the past say to me that I need to be in better shape. I find all this funny because I had a feeling this was going to happen 10 years ago. It is one thing to work hard and live life but now I see it is time to slow down.
As I was sitting in the doctor's office, I was reading up on what I have. However, I came in with pain and discomfort. Doing something as simple as riding a bicycle would damn near be as painful as standing on a bad leg for hours. Before coming to this doctor, another doctor was saying I am too young for a knee replacement and even if I lose weight, this is permanate. Even though I was not an athlete this is how most athletes retire. I find myself waking up with pain and going to bed at night numbing the pain. Getting older is a suppose to be a slow process but in my case this sped up things.
To some people, this rambling about being older might not make sense but I am seeing that my body isn't getting younger and the things I use to do hurt now. People would tell me that most pains and aches can be solved with an asprin or motrin but sometimes you need something stronger. The only good thing about being in pain is the distraction from being depressed. Pain not only takes over but it makes you see things differently.
Most people think it is noble to work with pain but I am seeing that once you hurt moreso than normal, you stop moving and rest to ease up the pain. I might be able to go to the store or walk but it is hard to do it without grimacing or wincing in pain. I hope that when people see me now, they know I am not lazy but trying to make things worse. I know when I am 55 or 60 this will be worse but for now, I take things day to day.
Your Friend,
Eugene
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