Dear Friends,
Well it is the day before my birthday and I am nervous as hell. I guess the hype of the day is getting to me. I want to think that the day before my 34th birthday, I want to be happy and blessed. I am happy and blessed. Also I am sad and worried because I am older but don't feel wiser. Unlike most of my blogs about the days leading to my birthday, this one is going to be short and sweet. I want to say all my writing for the actual day. So with that said, here's my thoughts for day 19 of 20.....
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I will be 34 years old in less than 24 hours. I have thought about how I was ten years ago, and also 20 years ago. I loved that when I was 14, I was really idealistic and hopeful of the future. What's sad is that when I was 24, I was less idealistic but more realistic. It is funny that the older you get, the wiser you suppose to be. I don't see that because I repeat mistakes but they have different names.
Something else I notice is the way things change before birthdays. When I was 14 years old, I barely liked my father but as I am now, I have new respect for him. Same with my mother at 14 and now. As a teen, you hate the world but the older you are, you see new things to make you want to be a aprt of the world.
One more thing, I have decided to celebrate this birthday because you only live once. Why hide and be depressed? Also why be a sour puss? I am going to be more lively as I get older because I don't want to regret shit. People that regret are those who nag about the little shit in life. I am tired of that.
Until tomorrow, I will focus on today. I also want to be able to have people see that I am getting better not worse. No more being depressed or sad for something that someone wanted from me. I want to be happy and also very determined to be more than what I am in life. So until tomorrow, have a good night my friends.
Eugene Chandler III
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