Dear
Friends,
As
the New Year approaches, I am trying to let go of all the bad things that
occurred in 2011. I don’t think this is a bad year but I do see a lot of things
that caused me to either mess up or change plans. Some of you know that if I
put my mind to something that I usually do it. Sad to say that I did mess up
big time this year and hope to not bring anymore shit into 2012. I said that I
was going to do a year in review but this is not the blog for it. This blog is
to focus on the positive things that I accomplished in 2011. I know that might
be hard to do since I bitch a lot but I did get some things done. So this is my
blog of positives for 2011.
My
biggest accomplishment was getting my associate’s degree this past April. If
you saw the videos and the blogs, you saw that I was happy to finish something.
No matter what happened between my now ex and I, there was hope in my heart
about getting that degree. My mother was there to see it but my great aunt was
not. I promised her before her death I would get a degree but she died the year
before. I know she was watching me from heaven to walk across the stage and get
this degree. I will keep that promise when I get my bachelor’s degree by 2014.
I hope then my life will be better.
Aside
from graduating from school, I rekindled an old relationship. Even though it
ended too soon, I was able to knock off one thing off my bucket list: To have
one chance to date my high school sweetheart. I did and again, even though it
was riddled with stress and bullshit, I can say now that it was worth it. I
will still have a place in my heart for her and her kids. No matter what I said
in the past, she will always be my first real crush and love.
This
was a good year work wise since I worked not only the mlb playoffs but also a
Monday night football game and maybe saw something I never though I would see
in my life….the Detroit Lions make it into the nfl playoffs. So that would mean
I saw: a super bowl, world series, mlb all star game, kid rock and eminem, plus
ncaa final four. I always see the wings in the nhl playoffs and I think as a
sports fan, I am good with all that.
Finally,
I think my overall accomplishment of 2011 is the fact that I lived to see
another year. A year that made me a better person but also a better man, I made
a promise that in 2012 to myself. A promise that I heal and love myself first
because I was too busy loving others and worrying about other shit that was
hurting me. So with that said, this is one of my finals blogs for 2011. Thank
you for reading and there is more to come in 2011 and 2012.
Eugene
Chandler III
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