Dear Friends,
I know it has been a while since I blogged but like my vlog
explains, I been a busy beaver. However, this entry is not going to be like I
originally wanted. Since late July, I have been dealing with the ramifications
of what happened to me during May. So I have been serving six month probation.
Unlike people like Lindsay Lohan and other celebrities who get in trouble with
the law, I am dealing with fines and mandatory anger management/domestic
violence classes. As I had been doing the fines, it took me until last Thursday
to get a class and also be able to feel comfortable to be myself in the class.
So far so good but I know I could do more.
As I deal with probation, I keep thinking about what if I
changed the situation to avoid jail and also probation. I also think about what
I have now and if I could have still done what I did to get to my present life.
I also think about if things were different, would I be able to be civil to my
current ex? As I take the classes and read the books, I learn that what
occurred on that date could have been avoided. However, I was testing my fate
and was gone for 30 days. Looking back, I think I lost my drive and passion
once I was incarcerated. I keep thinking something died and this new Eugene
So where do I go from here? Well I guess I need to start
blogging and vlogging for the rest of the year to get through 2011 and make a
fresh start for 2012. I also want to get through this year because I want to
complete the year with something good and positive in my life. All I can do is
hope for a different life and retain my knowledge before I forget. My life is
difficult to deal with but I am learning that my life can be changed for the
better. That's all for now but more to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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