Dear Friends,
How do you tell a small child that you are their father? That’s something I have been trying to do this weekend and ever before then. Some kids know who their mom and dad are. For those who don’t then be happy to have your adoptive fathers and mothers. My son is three and does not know I exist. My baby momma has not told him I exist and until recently, I did not want him to know. Why the change of heart? Well god forbids, if I am no longer on this earth, then he would be my only air to anything worthy. I knew of my father since the age of three. It is hard in the world we live in to be able to have a child and become a father or a mother. My mother never talked bad about my father. My opinion of my father was not a good one. I am trying to avoid my son from having these same thoughts but that’s kind of late.
This past weekend, I had a nice and frank conversation with my baby momma and he knows I exist but I’m not there for him. I am trying to be there but I am working on myself. My son is someone I do not want to see if I am not doing well. So how do you tell a small child that you are his father? Is it like telling a child the truth about Santa? Or is it like telling a child that you cannot eat desert? This is not something that can be done quick and fast. I know this is going to take some time to adjust not only for him but myself as well.
One more thing, after you tell this child that you are his father, do they suppose to forgive you for not being there? Can someone be forgiven for not being in someone’s life? Only time will tell…
More To Come…
Eugene Chandler III
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