Dear Friends,
Well I had an interesting couple of days. I usually don't share exactly what's going on with my life because I hate for people to worry but people worry regardless. So what happened to cause all these changes in 48 hours? Here goes the story:
Since October 28th, I have been bouncing around sleeping different places because I left where I was staying at with my now ex girlfriend. So for the last month, I was sleeping on couches, chairs, and other places for the night. I'm use to this because I been in this situation before. So for the most part, I been bouncing around and trying to get myself together. So on Monday, I ran out of places to sleep at. I was upset and angry. I lost it for the most part. So on Tuesday, I was without a warm place to go. It was ironic that the cold weather hit on Tuesday. So instead of running to a shelter or even asking for help, I decided to walk around Monroe. At first, I should have found places to get out of the cold instead of staying up all night but I chose to stay up all night. So my first stop was Meijers. Now I love to go to places like Meijers that are open 24 hours because you see alot of students and insomniacs walk around for hours looking around and shopping. So I spent about two hours in Meijers walking around. I watched the promo videos, looked at clothes, and keeping busy until 3am. Then I walked to Walgreens. That was a fun trek because I was trying to kill time. Walgreens was a quick trip because I was getting bored at Meijers. So from there, I went to WalMart and really had fun. I walked through almost every aisle grabbing random items. I was excited that they did have the MJ game. I was also having fun trying to stay awake and not out in the cold. So it was close to 5am when I left Walmart. During my walks, I prayed for myself and others. I also had ideals for different things. When 6am came, I was in McDonald's drinking my warm hot chocolate. As the warm liquid filled my belly, I made it throught the night but I was loopy all day. I actually caught myself close to passing out. I actually took naps most of the day. I did made it through.
So did I learn anything doing this? I am human and need to rest. I also need to stop being scared to ask for help. It is not being prideful, I hate people worrying about me. I also hate people pittying me. I am all better and also will be getting help somehow. For now, I am counting on some things to come through. More to come.
Eugene Chandler III
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