2010: Party Like It's 1999

Dear Friends,

If you know me, you know I am riddled with a lot of past acts and acts of my parents. Recently, I have started to retrace my steps as to what I did right in my life and what I fucked up on. My early blog about my first love was the catalyst for all this. 2010 is the year to correct and fix. I finally made peace with my high school sweetheart. We recently talked and it was made clear to me that for reason out of our control, we had to break up. Now that I fixed that road in my life, time to really get into the meat of my past. Next stop, 1999. Now I had a journal and wrote about my life back then. I was going through at during that time. I was attending University of Detroit Mercy. I was dealing with depression. My life was wild back then. So in August 1999, I was going to turn 21. I wanted more in my life. One thing I wanted do finally do was to have sex with my college sweetheart. At the time, we were in love and wanted to be together. Now at the time, I was working and had a friend I met at work. For the blog, my college sweetheart’s name is Gigi and this friend I speak of is named MM. Now during the day, I was with MM but on the weekends, it is Gigi’s time. However, what happened on 8/20/1999 changed my life. Basically, instead of having sex with Gigi, I got drunk and had sex with MM. You would think, I would feel guilty about this but I do not. That’s because the event open my eyes. What I am about to tell you is the part most people don’t know. That part is:


On 8/19/1999, I decided to make changes in my life. Normally, I hate to make these changes but since I was going to be 21, I wanted to. When I decided to hang out with MM, it was the start of a ride that I am still on. That night, my life changed because not only did I have sex with someone else but it was because a new person was created.

Since that change, I dumped Gigi to be with MM. I later found out that Gigi was messing around on me. So when I heard that, it made my changes easier and painless. Now unlike Shelly, my high school sweetheart, Gigi does not want to talk to me (That’s because of the events that occurred on 8/20/1999 in which Gigi made a fool of herself). That part of my life will never be closed. However, I have decided to move on just so that I can at least remember and laugh about it. So as I continue with my journey to fix my life and finally get my shit together, I learned that most people will forgive but never forgot what happened while dealing with me. More to come.


Eugene Chandler III